As we are wrapping up the time on the field of our first term we have been reflecting on the past few years. We have filled out paperwork regarding this term and the next. I had to pause and wonder how to fill out the slot for what my ministry is and will be.

As most of you know I have wanted to be a missionary for many years. I gave my all in seeking after this dream I felt the Lord was directing me to take. I was fortunate to meet Taylor to help balance me out and help me through this journey together.

It was exciting to finally be able to live out the dream as we moved our family in November 2008 to Kenya and then Sudan. I had been picturing myself digging wells, leading seminars, helping others plant gardens that not only helped their families avoid starvation but be a source of income as well.

What I could not truly prepare for ahead of time was the reality of my role of wife and mother being full time. During this adjustment I was thankful to have the title of language learner while in Sudan, then be able to help assist the short-term program here in Kenya.

Looking ahead and wondering what my “ministry” will be in addition to being a wife and mom I continue to struggle with feeling like it isn’t enough. I received a good reminder from a recent daily devotional…

There are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit; and there are varieties of services, but the same Lord; and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God who activates all of them in everyone. 1 Corinthians 12:46 (NRSV)
“…even when we feel we have limited ability, we are still needed to help fulfill the ministry of the church. The Bible tells us, “Those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor” (niv). I am thankful that God gives each of us the privilege to serve and to be included as a useful part of the body of Christ.”

I continually need to step back and remind myself that whatever job, ministry, task I do matters because that is what the Lord has for me at this moment. No matter how I view it or its importance it is of highest importance that I give my all and do it as unto the Lord. To refocus on the fact that I, that we, get to take part in the Lord’s work as his children. What an honor!